Someone quotes the byline of your Tumblr to you while lying in bed…I shouldn’t have made it visible on Facebook…dammit.
Anyways, I am officially a townie of Uijeongbu. I go to a bar where the bartender lets me drink Jaeger straight from the machine. It is also where I met the bloke who later dropped a line from my blog. It completely caught me off guard. I didn’t think anyone actually read what I was writing besides my nearest and dearest. I was slightly embarrassed; when I write I am always very critical of it, no matter the context. I didn’t feel prepared. Much like my days at the hogwon.
I am considering the first three months training, and anything that goes wrong after that just goes to show I am not a good teacher. I don’t respond well to micro management, which is I feel I have been managed this last month. I guess I would do the same thing if I were in the schools place. I, like the children, am an investment. I’ll eventually get the hang of the routines and preparation. It is all about time management, and anyone who knows me in the slightest knows it is not my strong point. It is definitely a skill and one that I do not possess. I can however, develop it and focus on the positive outcome.
I can just see those little heathens answering in complete (grammatically correct) sentences. Heathens may be a little strong. Mongrels maybe? The kids aren’t bad to be honest. As cute and loving as they are, they can be so mean to one another. I hate it. Classroom management is another thing I will have to hone in. The kids know that I think they are precious and they use it to their advantage. They are creepily aware of that. Manipulative little buggers. Let the mind games begin.
Aside from school, I love being here. Although I was once again faced with the question of why I truly came here. I didn’t think I was running from anything, until the same issues followed me. A place and its people can be completely different than what you’re used to, but the feelings you have towards something or someone won’t change so easily.
I was definitely running from anything relationship-wise. I always seem to run that ship into an iceberg. Subconsciously I have been searching for someone to fill a void that could never be filled by a lover. I thought moving to a different country would make me forget about it, but I just think about it more. Not in a bad way though. I feel like I have clarity on the topic and can think more logically here as opposed to being home when I am surrounded by lovely distractions.
I’ve also neglected taking care of myself for such a long time, holding off for that right moment. Well, no moment will ever be “just right.” The timing forever seems off to get in shape. It is just one of those things you have to do. In Korean culture, or this sublet of Korean culture, that I have experienced has never made me feel so slovenly. Koreans do take pride in their looks and are very aware (which is strange, because they don’t seem too aware of their surroundings when they are running into you on the street or won’t move aside on the sidewalk) of how they appear in public, something I thought I didn’t care about. Well I do and it is definitely time to crack down.
I did decide to put exercising off for just a smidgen longer though. I have a really good excuse this time though. I had an awesome tattoo put on my side and I don’t want to irritate it by sweating all over it. Maggie means Catfish in Korean, so why not get it permanently embedded in my skin?!
Overall, I am having a fantastic time while making some fantastic friends. I couldn’t ask for more in my life right now.
On that note, I will try and come up with some other crazy things to do over the next year :) I’ll keep you posted, as always.